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ComeOnMakeMe//FeelAlive

August 5, 2017 Leave a comment

//Beating the August heat at a beach house. A brief time to relax before heading into the mess.

//ATB – Pages feat. HALIENE

//Best track on the album.

Pages, of ink. I watch them blur and bleed. Are these words all that’s left of me.

These cracks in my heart. I’m painting with these scars. I’m blinded, I’m falling apart.

Fall on me like water. Wash me clean. Write my story over again.

Break me out of silence. Set me free. Cause I’m at the end. So write my story over again.

Again. Over again.

//Krewella – Alive (Mark Reihill Remix)

(Feel alive)
All alone, just the beat inside my soul. Come on make me feel alive.

Let’s make this fleeting moment last forever. So, tell me what you’re waiting for. I’m gonna keep it frozen here forever. There’s no regretting anymore.

It’s worth the wait, even so far away. I’m making the night mine until the day I die. No lights to brake when you’re hanging by fate. You know what it feels like when you’re dancing blind.

All alone, just the beat inside my soul. Take me home, where my dreams are made of gold. In the zone, where the beat is un-controlled. I know what it feels like. Come on make me feel alive.

(Feel alive)
I know what it feels like. Come on make me feel alive.

Meet me under shining lights. I’ve been waiting right here all my life. Feelings you can’t deny that you’re living, open up your eyes.

And I just wanna sink into your crazy laughter. Come on make me feel until the pain don’t matter. Every second here makes my heart beat faster. Finally think I found what I’m chasing after.

All alone, just the beat inside my soul. Take me home, where my dreams are made of gold. In the zone, where the beat is un-controlled. I know what it feels like. Come on make me feel alive.

(Feel alive)
I know what it feels like. Come on make me feel alive.

//Illenium & Kerli – Sound of Walking Away

I’ve been quiet aside you. While my heart in my chest shouts. Feeling silenced and lied to. But enough is enough.

Don’t come find me, I won’t be here waiting. I so can do it alone, you’re not worth staying.

Weren’t listening but now there’s no way you won’t hear. There’s a voice emerging in the night so loud and clear. I’ll turn it up like you turn me down, I’m not afraid. Hit play, hit play. It’s the sound of walking away.

It’s the sound of walking away. It’s the sound of walking away. It’s the sound of walking away.

I’ve been drowning inside you. While my love it just pours out. I’ve been running behind you. But enough is enough.

Don’t come find me, I won’t be here waiting. I so can do it alone, you’re not worth staying.

Weren’t listening but now there’s no way you won’t hear. There’s a voice emerging in the night so loud and clear. I’ll turn it up like you turn me down, I’m not afraid. Hit play, hit play. It’s the sound of walking away.

It’s the sound of walking away.  It’s the sound of walking away.

//Mr FijiWiji feat Danyka Nadeau – Yours Truly (Vacant Remix)

Pull me close and you say you’ll never run away. Think that love is a game and now we’ve gone insane. But what we have is what one spends a lifetime searching for.

‘Cause with you I feel amazing, never felt before. Why would I be so ashamed, found love worth fighting for. Standing right at the gates, walking your stairway to heaven.

Baby I’m in love, And I can’t get enough. I’m yours truly, truly, truly, baby. Truly.

Baby I’m in love. Can you feel the rush. I’m yours truly, truly, truly baby. Truly.

//Adventure Club – Firestorm ft. Sara Diamond (Sunday Service Remix)

Heard all the stories ’bout this life. None of ’em for me, not that type.

I wanna run with the wolves in the wild. We can go and we’ll race right through the night. There’s no fear in my eyes, just the will to survive. No, we’ll never stop the fight.

Give me a dream and I’ll chase it. Lend me your heart and I’ll break it. Show me the world and I’ll take it. Baby, I won’t quit ’cause I’m a firestorm. I’m a firestorm, I’m a firestorm. Show me the world and I’ll take it. Baby, I won’t quit ’cause I’m a firestorm.

I need it all.

 

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IfI’m//Guilty

August 5, 2017 Leave a comment

//With the property purchased and closing the end of the month. The long trek to building begins! Although completion is estimated for next fall. First steps are getting the plans drawn up, the land cleared, permits.. etc.

//Satellite Empire – Thrones (Ben Walter Remix)

Never comes easily. Never will leave your soul.  No one’s ever gonna lift you higher than them.

Never feels so free.  When you lose control.

Oh I’m higher than mountain tops,  And I can’t get off.  Call me guilty.  Like we all should be.

If all that I ever wanted was glory.  I’d be dripping by now.  Oh but it comes from the light inside,  From this bloodline too.

Open your eyes.  No one’s getting,  Out alive.

Throw my into the first sunrise. Shocking violent skies.  If I’m guilty.  I’m where I should be.

If all that I ever wanted was glory.  I’d be dripping by now.  Oh but I comes, from the light inside.  From this bloodline too.

//Koven & Crystal Skies – You Me and Gravity

Fall into your mind. Waiting just to feel the light. Another change. Cutting to the thoughts within. The clarity is wearing thin. Another time to treat this.

Holding onto what we find. We don’t want to lose this fight. You, me, and gravity. (And gravity, and gravity)

You, me, and gravity. You, me, and gravity. You, me, and gravity.

Strong enough to reach the line. Are we on the final time. Forgive our lies. Bought caution by the hopes we had. Thinking we could make it there. Another chance to change this.

Holding onto what we find. We don’t want to lose this fight. You, me, and gravity. (And gravity, and gravity) Brave enough to give it all. Knowing that the faint will fall. You, me, and gravity.  (and gravity)

//Eckoh – Save Me feat. Ashley Apollodor

The world around me seems so simple. The way they move with all the people. In the streets I see you, Crawling back to me. Finally.

I’m lost in time, save me.

//Dion Timmer – Alchemy (feat. Azuria Sky)

//derp.

[] and wait inside my head. Your eyes seek honesty. Address the enemy behind my head. Wide awake I see you gazing through me.

A counterfeit is what I am. Open your mind, open your eyes you say. This alchemy is going wrong. And I refuse to treat your []

you can make me think []

You were right in the saddest way. How can I still remain. Pure, insanity. Within your alchemy.

But that was so very long ago. My heart is [] now. This countryside is green with ivy. And I can hear the oceans singing.

//Adventure Club – Breathe ft. SONDAR (Ra Remix)

You caught me all alone, smooth talking. Your tongue burns like Patrón. Oh, it only took one touch, it only takes one. You’re the sweet smoke in my lungs straight to my head. Well I was strong, but I, I’m stupid for your touch. It only takes.

I tried to hit you, quit you. But it can’t seem to get through, get through. I can’t stop the need the need to, need you. Something about that thrill. Hit you, quit you. But it can’t seem to get through, get through. I can’t stop the need the need to, need you. Something about that thrill.

Said you were the high I need. But you left me lost up in the sky. Hurts when I breathe your name, hurts when I breathe you. Said you take my breath away. But you left me oxygen deprived. Hurts when I breathe your name, hurts when I breathe you.

Something about you.

We were a perfect match, that’s why we burnt so fast. I just needed, only needed, one more touch.

 

//Eve

October 31, 2016 Leave a comment

//The month was not over with us.

//A head on collision on the interstate. She’s been in the ICU for over a week. She was on a ventilator and sedated for a week, but she’s finally coming off the drugs and we can talk with her now. She still has a few surgeries to go, and months of recovery and rehabilitation, but she survived. The car is done, salvaged what we could get out of it that wasn’t destroyed. The criminal case is rather complicated atm, as there are other factors involved besides the collision.  The investigators have told us bits and pieces, but there is a lot they won’t say while it’s still ongoing. (hm, thank goodness for that social media that he just left there for people to rummage through… )

//In addition to the madness. Another is in the hospital for what we thought was Appendicitis. Turns out it’s not, and of course, a more complicated case of diverticulitis. She has just come out of her second surgery, and will probably be in the hospital for another week.

//UPDATE: to last night’s surgery, they found and removed what may have been cancer (results not in yet). That is what caused the rupture leak and infection.

//Might as well go back to living at the hospital again…

//I’m done with October.

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DuskTo//Dawn

October 19, 2016 Leave a comment

//We had only been there a day, out running some errands and whatnot. A call comes in to say that someone else has passed. At this point I’m thinking “What the heck world! Way to drop tragedy on people all at once. Didn’t I just say I didn’t want to always be coming back here on the news of someones death! Can we not do this?”

So there was much more to do than expected.

It’s been a very tried and draining past few weeks.

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YouMakeMe//Begin

October 12, 2016 Leave a comment

//I feel like every time I head back there, it’s for another memorial service. It would be nice to go for a good reason next time.

//Looking forward, the cruise in December has now been booked. It was getting kinda late to get that one in there.

//Seven Lions x Illenium x Said The Sky – Rush Over Me (feat. Haliene)

//Well this is a dream team.

Your finger tips, on my skin. There’s nothing that, I wouldn’t give. To keep this love alive.

We gave it all, we gave it up. The chemistry, was not enough. Oh, we just collide.

I hate myself when I say. I need tonight to say goodbye. I will give what’s left, inside.

So rush over me one more time. I will miss you, torn apart after tonight. And we can’t fix it.

Rush over me one more time. The end is coming. Rush over, rush over me. ‘Cause I will miss you.

‘Cause I will miss you.

Hold on to me now, before we lose this. I keep breaking down, can I do this? I need tonight to say goodbye, to say goodbye.
To say goodbye.
To say goodbye.
To say goodbye.

To say goodbye.

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

//Rain Man & Krysta Youngs – Habit

//No one can deny that he was the sound that made Krewella. This is perfect. Guessing a little on the lyrics, as I lack time.

Life from the fast lane. High off the (?). You’re my cocaine lover.

Got guilt in your pocket. Forget about it. I just blew your cover.

Blow, blow, blow, blow. I just blew your cover. Blow, blow, blow, blow.

I wanna be your habit. Cut me down like Xanax. Cause if you know that you shouldn’t be. I’ll take away your panic

Just leave your heart wide open. My love comes in doses. So if you know that you shouldn’t be. I’ll take away your panic.

I wanna be your habit. Cut me down like Xanax. I wanna be your habit.

Some things always last. Vintage photograph. You look like your father.

Run until your crazy. You suffocated baby. Just like your mother.

Blow, blow, blow, blow. I just blew your cover. Blow, blow, blow, blow.

I wanna be your habit. Cut me down like Xanax. Cause if you know that you shouldn’t be. I’ll take away your panic.

Just leave your heart wide open. My love comes in doses. So if you know that you shouldn’t be. I’ll take away your panic.

I wanna be your habit. Cut me down like Xanax. I wanna be your habit.

I wanna be right here,  Right next to you. Your prescriptions overdo.

//BTS – Wings

//Well, the whole album.  Although I’m mostly soaking in Begin, Lie, Awake, Cypher 4 and the title song, Blood Sweat & Tears. So the title song MV will go here.

//방탄소년단 (BTS) ‘피 땀 눈물 (Blood Sweat & Tears)’ MV 

 

TogetherWeControl//TheSunlight

January 27, 2016 Leave a comment

//Mackenzie and Chantel are going to be here in a month! :D Unfortunately we still don’t have a place for the to live.  We had a place… for like a day.  So we found this perfect little cottage, by a stream, it was exactly what Chantel was looking for. She talked with the owner about renting, they made an agreement, everything was going great. Then someone has to go and say “This is clearly Divine Intervention”. I… don’t really agree with those that say that to like every good thing that happens to them in life. It’s overused, and clearly doesn’t hold up. A few days later the little cottage suffered from a sinkhole. Yeah, it’s too close to that stream, and the water has washed away the ground underneath. So that place is unlivable until repairs. So we are on the hunt once again to find a place.

Eventually Chantel and Mackie will move into the new house when it’s built. But that won’t be for awhile, so they need a temporary place. Unfortunately, due to circumstances in this area (because of a new state legalization), there are no places to rent.

//It will get sorted. One way or the other.

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//Limitless

September 26, 2015 Leave a comment

//Micah was airlifted to the hospital late last night. Early diagnosis is Spinal Meningitis. He would be the second case in their area this past week. His test results haven’t come in yet.  When we got to the hospital, he was still heavily sedated. He’s been having a lot of seizures and he yanked out the intubation tube, so they are having to keep him calm with drugs. His symptoms started last Friday and by Thursday the seizures started and he became unresponsive.

//To add to the drama, I got people moving in here tomorrow.  Their house is sold (well officially at the end of the month) and they will be living here for the time being. Probably a year or so. Moving furniture and boxes is so much fun D: But gaming is about to get intense ;o

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